Today is the 182th day of the year. My change when I bought lunch came out to $1.82 and all the small things by blink182 came on at work. Coincidence? I don’t think so. Happy punk day everyone!

Okay but think about it. Finding someone you really enjoy being around is rare. Finding your soul mate is really rare. And what if just by chance you did that person. Do you realize how amazing that is? Like meeting someone who fits you perfectly an that you’re paths crossed. You soul mate could have been born hundreds of years before you. Or could live across the world. But some people find that person and I think that’s the most amazing thing in the world.

I hate saying my name aloud but the way it rolls off your tongue makes it sound like pure gold

You’re just so cute. But honestly I never even really noticed you or considered you, even though I’ve known you since we were 5. I think it’s how you are so genuine and make me laugh. You don’t seem like the rest. And dammit, you give me the butterflies. And I hate the butterflies.

The other day I meant to say pop corn but on accident I said cop porn and thins got awkward real fast

Okay so like ghosts. I believe in them. But what if every time we think a ghost is moving something it’s really just the sims game were in. The people playing is moving our stuff and we think it’s ghost. Our entire life is in the hands of probably a ten year old child. Wtf

No it’s not Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday… It’s How I Met Your Mother, Supernatural, American Horror Story, Greys Anatomy, Friday, Saturday Night Live, The Walking Dead

I’ve been trying to work on myself and become a better person and a person who I like. What I’m aspiring to be isn’t necessarily how everyone sees the perfect person. But I’ve become better at admitting when I’m wrong and have stayed strong in why I believe. I have stood up for myself and others. Ive done wonderful at work and in this new school year. I’m learning to love myself. And it feels great. It takes time and dedication to work on yourself and not give up.

I almost died by an enchilada today.

I don’t like who I am so I’m going to try to change that. It might now go as planned but at least I’m trying. And I don’t need anyone’s criticism about it.

omg I feel like I’m being really weird right now. To late. Past my bedtime.


Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-William Ernest Henley

My AP world exam…
I didn’t even finish the multiple choice! How the hell is 54 minutes long enough. I had like five left! THE FUCKING READINGS. Then the DBQ, I thought was pretty easy and did it in 45 minutes. But then I got paranoid and freaked and and was like “what if I actually did really bad and what if I didn’t understand it at all!” Then the CCOT. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT SHIT. I completely blanked and if I’m going to be honest. I didn’t write about the right region or time period. I’m so screwed. (Oh like a month ago at my school we got in groups and every group had. A different time period and region and mine was Asia preiod5) so then the COMP was so easy because I already knew it all and threw a shit ton of vocabulary in there and it was my bitch. And then I went back to the CCOT and spent a good twenty minutes writing the whole thing… And softly sobbed when I was done.

Its been a rough day.